Hurt

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way