martes, 9 de agosto de 2011

Giving up

You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it. I still do miss you occasionally, but I’m getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you’re doing, what we used to talk about, the laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this: no matter what, even through the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we’ve cried, never, ever did I give up on you. So if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach.

Growing up

Have you ever reminisced on something in the past, thinking of every possible way you could have changed it, made it last, made it work? All my life I spent way too much time trying to make things work. I’d make way too much effort on things that wouldn’t be worth it and would be burning myself in the end. I finally realized that I can’t control everything. I spent my days waking up, thinking about it, and going to bed thinking about it - hoping and praying it will come back - nothing lasts forever. We go through our lives thinking about yesterday and not today. Letting go isn’t being weak or giving up… letting go is GROWING UP.

“Growing up sucks. Not all kisses are magic, and most boys do not live up to your expectations. But there are those times when everything, I mean love, romance, relationships… it all falls together perfectly, and it’s incredible… it’s those moments, no matter how depressingly few and far between that make growing up worth it. And it’ll be okay.” (Dawson's Creek)

lunes, 8 de agosto de 2011


And that's the thing about people that mean everything they say, like me. They think everyone else does too.

The Edge

Have you ever had to get through a day pretending everything was normal and ok, while all the time you felt like you were carrying a terrible weight of unhappiness inside you?. 
I want to stand as close to the edge as I can withoug going over because I'm feeling that kind of tired that won't go away with sleep. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the centre.


People can change, they just don't because it's easier not to. They are always waiting for their lives to begin, like figuring they'll be someone else someday. But what are they waiting for? All we have is now, don't run from it.

In your dreams

They say that when you can’t sleep, 
you’re awake in someone’s dream
My heart is pounding
the air is gone from my lungs
I'm shivering in astonishment

Sometimes you have to let go 
to see if there was anything worth holding on to...
Here you are, a long time has passed
and yet nothing is changed (again).
You make me confused.

When someone is in your heart, 
they’re never truly gone. 
They can come back to you, 
even at unlikely times.

How do you hang on to someone who won’t stay? 
And how do you get rid of someone who won’t go?
That's just another big dillema and as such it will remain.

I won’t force myself to have a space in your life, 
because if you know my worth, you’ll create one for me.
And if you don't, then what a shame! It's your loss...
I guess, I'll see you in your dreams.

jueves, 4 de agosto de 2011


The unique and supreme voluptuousness of love lies in the certainty of committing evil. And men and women know from birth that in evil is found all sensual delight. 

Charles Baudelaire