8 meses

8 meses y parecen muchisimos más... ya te di mi regalo en forma de video hace unos días y tu reacción fue la que esperaba :) no lo subo a internet porque xdjabdba vos sabes ;) ;)
Si miro para atrás no puedo creer donde estamos parados hoy y cuantos obstaculos superamos en el camino... pero todo valió la pena :)
Te amo y saber que vos me amas como me lo demostrás me hace saber que todo puedehacerse realidad.
Gracias amor!

Behind

I see black - what will you do?
I see blue - nothing you can do...
I am what I am and there's nothing you can do...
take it or leave it alone... solve it from scratch with no in-betweens... that's the way it should be done. Too bad things do not work that way... I'm tired and scared. I don't want to hurt anymore, no more pain inside please. I'm more than jaded. Just help me leave the past behind...

weird freaking coincidences - which definitively do not exist in my mind... 9.13 and 9.14 almost same timing - damn... freaking bizarre :O

"Hay gente que se conoce tan bien que advierte a los demás acerca de cómo son. Digamos, no le dan mucho futuro a la relación desde antes de que empiece. Pero gracias a la confianza que generan al confesar su perspectiva, logran establecer una relación".

Never Understand

The sun comes up another day begins
And I don't even worry about the state I'm in
Head so heavy and I'm looking thin
But when the sun goes down I wanna start again

You never understandin'
You never understand me
Yeah

Don't turn around until you look at me
Why don't you take a second and tell me what you see
Things I see you only disagree
You never understand that's what I want to be

You never understandin'
You never understand me
Yeah

Not wishing to hide but you just can't see me
I tell you the truth but you don't believe me
Thinking of love but I can't hear what you're saying
Tomorrow I'm leaving
Cause I'm not understanding you

mix

How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head, I should have known better

Yes I am
Yes I am
Forever black-eyed and guarantee to cause a fuss

Yes I am
Yes I am
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than he desert me

Yes I will always
Yes I will always
Put on my best smile,
But underneath I'm a broken girl.

He'll never get me,
He will never understand
No one will ever understand...

Hold your breath and count to ten,
And fall apart and start again,
Hold your breath and count to ten,
Start again, start again...

New Glasses

unfortunately they do not change my view of the world...

I can't remember how this got started but I can tell you exactly how this will end... well, I die young.

Cherry Tree

Algo que siempre soñe fue tener un jardín con un cerezo en el medio. Amo los colores, el "aroma" del cerezo... su misticismo... algún día tendré un cerezo... y quizas algún día me lo tatue también.

Silencio

Busca el silencio.
Goza en silencio.
Adora el silencio.

Al progresar en el camino, uno busca el silencio más y más. Será un gran bienestar, una tremenda fuente de consuelo y paz.

Una vez que encuentras la profunda soledad y calma, habrá un gran gozo en tu corazón. He aquí finalmente el lugar donde no necesitas defensa ni ataque -el lugar donde puedes estar verdaderamente abierto. Habrá dicha, asombro, el sobrecogimiento de alcanzar algo puro y sagrado.

Después de eso, sentirás la adoración del silencio. Esta es la paz que parece eludir a tantos.

Fidelity

Fidelity is the quality of being faithful or loyal. Its original meaning regarded duty to a lord or a king, in a broader sense than the related concept of fealty. Both derive from the Latin word fidēlis, meaning "faithful or loyal"

In modern human relationships, the term can refer to sexual monogamy. In western culture this often means adherence to marriage vows, or of promises of exclusivity or monogamy, and an absence of adultery. However, some people do not equate fidelity in personal relationships with sexual or emotional monogamy.


Now really, I'm all in for respect but I do not believe human beings are capable of such feeling 24/7... And after years of listening to people going about this topic I have to say I've developed some kind of lack of trust in people when it comes to Fidelity...

(Post motivated by another incredible story I heard about this topic)

and now - the best song that talks about this:

(shake it up)
i never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
i got lost in the sounds
i hear in my mind all these voices
i hear in my mind all these words
i hear in my mind all this music
and it breaks my heart(x2)
and it breaks my h-h-h-h-eart(x2)
suppose i never ever met you
suppose we never fell in love
suppose i never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so so-o-o-o-oft
suppose i never ever saw you
suppose you'd never ever called
suppose i kept on singing love songs
just to break my own fall
just to break my fa-a-a-a-a-a-ll (x3)
break my fall(x2)
all my friends say that of course it's gonna get better
gonna get better
better (x7)
i never loved no body fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
i got lost in the sounds
i hear in my mind all these voices
i hear in my mind all these words
i hear in my mind all this music
and it breaks my heart(x2)
i hear in my mind all of these voices
i hear in my mind all of these words
i hear in my mind all of this music
and it breaks my heart(x2)
and it breaks my h-h-h-h-eart(x3)
and it breaks my heart(x6)

Estas cosas solo me pasan a mi...

Estas cosas solo me pasan a mi... sin duda solo me pasan a mi.

Cuantas veces repetí esa frase ya perdí la cuenta... si, mi vida es de telenovela... sería un best seller... lo sé.
Algún día lo escribiré todo y mis hijos se llenaran de plata... pero vivirla cuesta tanto!
Ser el sostén de medio mundo es tanto peso y más cuando yo no quiero que nadie tenga que ser mi sostén.

A veces solo quiero ser invisible. A veces no quiero que me encuentren.