I'm so sick of it

I want to change it all. I'm going to change it all.

Afraid

Will I ever get my head around
All the things that I feel good about
that always seem to disappear?
When every time I think
I've got this all worked out.
Something chews me up and spits me out.
But there's nothing left to fear...

I feel so bad
Never felt like this 'bout anything I never have
No, please don't tell me that
What's lost is lost it's never gonna come back home

I walk in circles when there's no one around
Try to find my own direction
I test the water but it burns my hand
As I disfigure my reflection
I've been a good girl but I need peace of mind

I lie in silence and I just can't sleep
How I long for your affection
My eyes are tired and my body is weak
I'll carry on proving everyone wrong
I will succeed!
What's meant to be is meant to be
it's no consolation!

I 'm caught up in a mystery way
I'm in a constant distant state
I pray for this to always be
The path that has been chosen for me
Cos it's got me spinning round and round, round and round
So high I can't touch the ground anymore
And it's all that I'm praying

I stood alone, the only one
I didn't know I was waiting
For liberty to feel like me
And now I'm here I'm not willing to change but I'm so afraid.

A new beginning II

Yesterday is gone
And tomorrow is new
Everything that's gone undone
Now its time for you to do
Look forward to a brighter day
And a great expected end
It's a new day and a new beginning

A period in my life is closed and with it a new door opens
The door to INDEPENDENCE and not having to do as someone else wants me to
The door to SELFSUFICIENCY and GROWTH
It's the beginning of MY life for ME.

Read My Mind

I never really gave up on breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light, I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around!

The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun
When you read my mind...

edge

the body stops working as it should and there's no medical explanation
the mind is full of negative thoughts and tormenting images
you want to cry as soon as the eyes open in the morning
the feeling of emptiness is overwhelming
the pain in the chest feels like an ax stuck in it
the dreams are all nightmares
everything goes black and blue
that's when you know you are on the edge
be careful not to fall...

When I see you, I see me

Travellers Tune más que nunca...

Reminiscences 2

Esperar que la gente haga por vos, lo que vos harías en su lugar es un terrible error. No se puede seguir perdiendo el tiempo.
Nunca arruines tu presente por un pasado que no tiene futuro... ya no hay confort en mirar para atrás. Solo quedan los recuerdos y el saber que "eso" ya no es lo que uno creía.

Vacaciones

Me encontré con Wally y por eso desaparecí un mes casi (?)

Unity

A night like this

you are just the most perfect thing i've got in this world. It goes deep, it goes deeper than this. I want it to be perfect. I want to change it all. Oh oh oh i want to change. Always and never it is. Forever and a day. I want to be perfect just for you. Oh oh oh i want to change. I want it to be good for good...

A new beginning

Fear not!

This is other of those moments when I have to stop and start something new.
“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.” And that's what I'm going to do. I won't stay in this prison anymore. I'm going to move and look ahead.
Still, “What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from." Thus, this is THE END. The end of a very dark period in my life. What comes ahead is all full of light. I believe there's nothing darker and in that direction I must drive.

The End.

Lo patético

solo porque me duele muchisimo la cabeza y no puedo dormir aún voy a comenzar con una sección nueva (?) en este blog que tratará de cosas patéticas, como ser:

1) contarle a todo el mundo cuando menstruas es patético, asqueroso e innecesario.
2) conocer a alguien, tener sexo y no cuidarte es patético pero peor aún es dejarla embarazada.
3) mirarte al espejo y verte gorda y fea cuando después vas y te morfas un kilo de helado sola, es patético.
4) estudiar y no presentarse a los exámenes, es más que patético.
5) cambiar el estado de facebook después de una pelea con tu pareja para volver a cambiarlo a las horas cuando ya se "arreglaron" es patético.
6) revisar el facebook cada 10 minutos a ver si alguien te escribió es patético... pero peor aún es ponerte triste si nadie lo hizo.
7) vivir de los demás es patético.
8) la envidia, es patética.
9) ser gay y no asumirlo, es patético.
10) histeriquear, es patético.
11) hacerte el que hablás bien un idioma cuando no tenes ni idea, es patético.
12) pedir consejos y hacer todo lo contrario a lo que te recomiendan, es patético.
13) no hacerse cargo, es patético.
14) ser ignorante, es patético.
15) llamar a tu ex por teléfono y cortar solo para escucharlo/a, es patético.


y así... seguiremos sumando cosas con la colaboración de la gente (?)

Gracias :)