RIP

Another night with no chance of resting. Nightmares preventing me from letting a long day go. You are in them... why can't I let you go? Why do I dream of such violence? Why can't I forgive you and even worst, why can't I forgive myself for the few times I ill treated you?
If I had the chance to see you once again and talk to you, I'd tell you I'm sorry for not being able to fix you. I'd tell you I love you and I forgive you for all you've done and I'd ask you if you are feeling any better now that you're dead. I'd hug you and try to take a mental picture of you so it can never get erased. I miss you so freaking much everyday and I don't know what to do when instead of appearing in my pleasant memories... you hount me like a ghost.
I wish I could let it all rest in peace...

You own a room in my mind

I wish I was able to keep all the words shared so they would never escape.
I wish I could keep them in my mind and repeat them from time to time.
I wish memory was not so weak as to let them slip away and leave an empty space.
I wish the good things from the past stayed alive forever as the dreams I have are.
I wish I was alive in you as you are alive in me... endlessly.
I wish to always walk with a smile in my face when I think of you.
I wish I don't forget it all someday.
I wish for the both of us and I verbalize.
I wish for impossibles that maybe are not so.

As the fear fades away

As the fear fades away and the old familiar sting disappears, I remember everything I have undergone. It still hurts but now I believe I can manage sometimes.
What I have become through the experiences and what's ahead does not torture me anymore... All those who went away and those yet to come...
The darkness sorrounding me now has a soft light shinning through and telling me it can be done.
If I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself, I would do it all over again, I would find a way.

Diamante

Ser
Soñar
Cambiar Temer
Sentir Esforzarse Dar
Pesadillas Dolores Placeres
Odios Amores Rencores
Perdones Ilusiones
Ambicionar
Ver

es todo parte de un gran conjunto... manejarlos es lo complicado.

8 meses

8 meses y parecen muchisimos más... ya te di mi regalo en forma de video hace unos días y tu reacción fue la que esperaba :) no lo subo a internet porque xdjabdba vos sabes ;) ;)
Si miro para atrás no puedo creer donde estamos parados hoy y cuantos obstaculos superamos en el camino... pero todo valió la pena :)
Te amo y saber que vos me amas como me lo demostrás me hace saber que todo puedehacerse realidad.
Gracias amor!

Behind

I see black - what will you do?
I see blue - nothing you can do...
I am what I am and there's nothing you can do...
take it or leave it alone... solve it from scratch with no in-betweens... that's the way it should be done. Too bad things do not work that way... I'm tired and scared. I don't want to hurt anymore, no more pain inside please. I'm more than jaded. Just help me leave the past behind...

weird freaking coincidences - which definitively do not exist in my mind... 9.13 and 9.14 almost same timing - damn... freaking bizarre :O

"Hay gente que se conoce tan bien que advierte a los demás acerca de cómo son. Digamos, no le dan mucho futuro a la relación desde antes de que empiece. Pero gracias a la confianza que generan al confesar su perspectiva, logran establecer una relación".

Never Understand

The sun comes up another day begins
And I don't even worry about the state I'm in
Head so heavy and I'm looking thin
But when the sun goes down I wanna start again

You never understandin'
You never understand me
Yeah

Don't turn around until you look at me
Why don't you take a second and tell me what you see
Things I see you only disagree
You never understand that's what I want to be

You never understandin'
You never understand me
Yeah

Not wishing to hide but you just can't see me
I tell you the truth but you don't believe me
Thinking of love but I can't hear what you're saying
Tomorrow I'm leaving
Cause I'm not understanding you

mix

How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head, I should have known better

Yes I am
Yes I am
Forever black-eyed and guarantee to cause a fuss

Yes I am
Yes I am
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than he desert me

Yes I will always
Yes I will always
Put on my best smile,
But underneath I'm a broken girl.

He'll never get me,
He will never understand
No one will ever understand...

Hold your breath and count to ten,
And fall apart and start again,
Hold your breath and count to ten,
Start again, start again...

New Glasses

unfortunately they do not change my view of the world...

I can't remember how this got started but I can tell you exactly how this will end... well, I die young.